This semester has been quite different from last semester. The "newness" of college and Crown in general have worn off by now and I'm starting to figure out what my role is here at Crown. It is amazing to me just how quickly Crown has become a home to me. God has been good to me :)
This semester especially I have been making deeper and more true friendships. My FXer's Beth Nguyen and Emily Lundy have been a special gift to me. They live on my floor and have been by my side this whole semester. We have enjoyed MANY laughs and they totally get me! But even though it is fun to have friends to laugh with, it is the times we have got to be here for each other, the times when laughter is the last thing on our minds that have meant the most to me. These two women allow me to vent to them and blow off steam, they give me advice when I ask (which is often!), and I know that they both genuinely desire to encourage my spiritual growth. Oh, how I love them! <3
As a part of figuring out my role here at Crown, I have applied for a position as an RA for next year. An RA for those of you who don't know, is the person responsible for a floor of students in the dorms. They play the role of helping students if problems come up, enforce the rules, plan activities for the floor to do throughout the year, and serve as a role model. I still have to complete the interview and group observation phases of the application process and I look forward to finding out if I get the position. (That won't be until the 2nd week in March) Either way, next year I plan to take an active role in serving others here at Crown and look forward to finding out what that will look like.
Some of you may be wondering how my walk with God is going. I have realized that I haven't really talked too much about that in my blogs and enough is enough! I want to let all of you wonderful people who have been so influential in my spiritual development to be updated on how I am doing.
At the beginning of this semester, I had such a desire to be in the Word and to spend time with God. And then classes starting getting busy and other things fought for my attention and won. I'm not proud of the amount of time I've spent doing anything BUT spending time with God. It amazes me each day how faithful God is to me even when I am far from being faithful to Him. And while I know that my actions or "good deeds" are worthless when it comes to having salvation, I want to honor God with my life and show Him that I want to spend time with him.So while I've been majorly failing at being consistent I know that God is still teaching me. It's times like this that I am so thankful for His grace. :)
Here's a few lyrics from the song Deeds by Sanctus Real that I love and that really challenge me. (If you haven't heard this song, listen to it!)
You know I can't see thinking
That I'd be better off living just for selfish ambition, no
I know that faith is more than just believing
We should do the right
Things, for the right reasons