Monday, September 24, 2012

Reflections of my heart

It's been one month since I moved into Crown College and what a journey it's been already. God has already proved faithful in the ways in which He provides and gets me through each day which brings new challenges and discoveries. This has been a confusing, exciting, and extremely life-changing experience and it's only the first month! I wonder what an entire semester will bring?

This week we have a Deeper Life Conference, which is a time to refocus and take time out of our ordinary schedules and come to Jesus on our knees. We have a guest speaker who will be giving us messages on the topic of "Who do you think you are?" and I'm interested to see how this will effect my personal life. Although, I go to a Christian college, where the expection is that all students and staff would be God-honoring and live a lifestyle that reflects Jesus Christ to the world, there are definitely signs of our human sinful nature. So I'm very excited to see what will come of this conference and I pray that God would be moving in my heart,my fellow students'and the faculty as well.

At moments, I am in such awe of what's going on around me but other times I become so scared that I am not being myself or that I don't even know who that is...I guess this conference has the perfect focus for me right now. Thanks Lord! :) I look forward to seeing how God will continue to show me what steps to take and how I can draw near to him no matter how far away I am from those that love me.

I am really starting to miss my family and I pray that God is continuing to place people in their lives that are being an encouragement and showing them Christ's love. If you are reading this and you know my family at all...please be praying for them and if you feel called maybe even reach out to them? Maybe someone could invite Manny to youth group??? At times, I feel so useless so far away because I can't protect him or be a good example anymore so if you could be praying for them and me, I would so appreciative.


Praying for peace...

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


Each day reminds me that things change so fast! College is teaching me so much about myself or rather I am changing into the woman I want to be. Through classes, quiet time with God, and fun times with some pretty amazing friends, I am starting to see how truly good I have it.

 I have been given a mind that desires to learn and I keep working hard to soak up as much as possible. I have a desire to be the best daughter, sister, and friend I can be. I love to make people feel loved and safe...Crown is a great place to practice this. Every one of us freshmen are trying to "find ourselves" and that can be really lonely when no one knows you at a deep level like your family and friends back home. I love to help people study or listen to their concerns or simply be an encouragement to them in whatever way they need me to be.

These past few weeks have also shown me that as much as I love to be a goofball around people....(SEE PICTURE BELOW)

 and make them smile, in order to have the energy to that I need some good ol' time for myself. I'm an outgoing introvert! Who would have thunk it? :P I've been lucky enough to have a good balance of people-time and kera-time....that's saying something considering I live in the dorms and on a campus with plenty of people surrounded me all the time.

God has been so good to me and I continue to deepen my relationship with him and get to know him more and more. I have made the commitment to read the entire bible again and look forward to what He is going to show me this time around. :) This period in my life seems pretty surreal so I need to work hard each day to pause and look at all the amazing things going on.

Awwh! I'm so happy and thankful <3

Monday, September 10, 2012

Building some AMAZING relationships!

This last week has been pretty spectacular! I've really started to make friends and I hope to continue to meet new people and get closer to those around me. Here's some of the fun people I've befriended so far...

1. Chloe, my incedible roommate. (WORM) She is so encouraging and she challenges me to see things from different perspectives. I really appreciate her willingness to be here for me when I need some advice or just someone to listen to my concerns.

2. Jess, my other awesome roommate.(aka ORCA) She is so funny! And I just love how she is so honest and sincere. I love how she is so true to herself. PLUS: she's fun to sneak up on :P
Left to Right: Chloe, Jess, and Me! (aka: Worm, Orca, Mullet!)

3. Lexi, a wonderful woman on my floor. I wrote about her in my last blog but seriously, she can relate to me in so many crazy ways and her desire to grow this year (in many different ways) makes me so happy :)

4. Aubrey, another cool cat on my floor. She allowed me to go with her this past weekend to her hometown and we had a blast! (With a couple more girls on our floor) She is also going into Youth Ministry so I look forward to learning along side her :)

5. Kristine, another fellow 1st Strohmer (that's our floor!). She is sarcastic! I enjoy spending time with her and laughing! I look forward to getting to know her more and more this year.

6. Dina, 1st Strohm baby! I really have enjoyed getting to know Dina over these past 2 weeks. She is so real and I hope to be an encouragement to her as we grow along side each other. :)

From left to right: (Dina, Kristine, and know which one's me so...well yeah :P)

7. Elaine, my RA. She is so enthuastic about her role in our lives and I love that I can ask her anything and she will answer it as honestly and openly as she possibly can. Plus she speaks my love language! ;)

8. Austin and Cody, "THE TWINS." My fellow Northern Minnesotans! (They are from International Falls) These two are the quietest guys I've ever met but they are hiliarious! Everytime I'm around them they make me laugh and for those of you who know what my laughter is like....I look quite ridiculous. Because no one can hear what they say but then all of the sudden comes loud and booming laughter. :)

There are so many more! But I've got to get back to the books so I'll leave it at that for now.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Where did the week go?

I can't believe it's only been a little over a week since I arrived here at Crown College. There has been so much going on! Between classes, homework, and socializing I feel like I haven't had a moment to sit back and process all that has changed.

 To say it's been an emotional rollercoaster would be putting lightly. There are times when I am filled with excitement because of all the new things that I'm experiencing, but then there are also times when I am suddenly so sad that I'm not surrounded by all the people that know me and can understand me without the slighest effort. It's tough to feel like myself in this new setting.

I'm working very hard and actually enjoy doing my "homework" because I love to learn but also that's when I feel like I'm putting all my money to good use. Choosing a private school was very expensive and I will get everything I possibly can out of my time here at Crown. I feel very lucky to be able to have the opportunity for an education.

My roommates, Chloe and Jess, are simply incredible. We all have our distant differences but yet we are so considerate of each other and respectful of each others needs. I'm not naive enough to think that there will not be days when it becomes harder to be so kind but I trust that we will see each through it. We all love to keep our room clean and blast praise music when we are doing homework or just hanging out. :)

I've made some good friends on my floor. There are two girls in particular, that just click with me. One of them is Lexi Smoot! She is from South St. Paul and has just a way of understanding what I'm going through. She is always cheering me up, reminding me that the transition phase will end eventually, and Lexi has a way of making me smile like no one else. The other girl who I've really connected with is Victoria Olmos Gonzalez! She is from Bakersville, California and we instantly were able to talk comfortably with each other and share about our lives. It is so AWESOME. :D I am looking forward to getting closer with each of them!

I also connected with my RA (Resident Assistant) Elaine. She is so sweet and genuine. I love that she always gives me a pat on the shoulder or knee when that's exactly what I need. :) I look forward to sharing my story with her and becoming close friends with her this year.

God has really been working in my heart already. Last night, I had this amazing hour of quiet prayer after a long draining day. And as I silently cried (again emotional rollercoaster!) and thanked God for the things he had already done in my life I prayed for all of the people I care about most. It broke my heart that I'm so far away and each of us are on different adventures but it was so nice to feel like I was able to be there for them through prayer. It was an experience I will never forget. I was able to let go and give all my concerns and desires to God.

There is so much more but I'll wrap it up with these verses which have been popping up everywhere over the last few days...

"Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!" -Luke 11:11-13